"If you don't see the real me, you won't see what love has won..." Vota

Thursday, June 25, 2009

My upcoming flying conundrum.

Tomorrow I fly to my sisters. I get to see my darling nephew and my newest niece who is about 3 weeks old. I get some good baby love, which might cure my desire for a third... that's for another blog. At 32 years old, this will only be my second flight and my first flight alone.

Well, my first flight was to Canada. I was fine with the thought of flying (even though I was thinking it seems unnatural for something that big to be in the sky miles and miles... ugh stop me now!) I buckled up as they told us to, and as we took off the speed took my breath; I couldn't catch it; I nearly hyperventilated. I was so freaked out that when we landed my seat belt slack would not unwind itself. I had gripped it so hard into a wad for the 2 hours or so we were in the air. My husband (boyfriend at the time) was with me. He had flown numerous times all over the world and never was a nervous flier. Now he is scared to death. I tend to have that effect on people and animals. I'll have to blog about some of my past fears which have seriously rubbed off on or mentally damaged others (people and animals). Back to the present... I have expressed my concern to my friend who happens to also be my Dr. or vise versa and he gave me a script for Xanax. Now since my last flight and all of my past fears I have become closer to the Lord and have given my anxiety over to Him. I was reluctant to fill the prescription, but decided to just to put in my purse in case. BTW It is a very low dose. Now, I am not afraid at all to fly; I do not fear dieing, I do not fear falling from miles above the earth; it doesn't bother me to even say these things; I know where I'll wake up if I die and it will be so awesome! I for one can't wait to see Jesus face to face.

I wonder though if the speed thing will still affect me like last time. I'm not afraid, it is just that I can't seem to breath going that fast. Do I take the Xanax just in case or do I wait to see how I react. At this point I will be alone and the meds will take a while to start working. Hmmm. Lord help me make the right decision, silly as it may be. I don't want to take unnecessary meds. Everyone reading my blog, pray that I enjoy the speed like maybe God has turned me in to a "speed junky" or something cool like that. OK, so that didn't sound right. You know what I mean... one of those people who like roller coasters, driving fast cars (I wouldn't know I drive a minivan), watching a good race...


  1. Try Prozac and Jack Daniels before you fly. It works every time.

  2. I hope you have a safe and enjoyable trip and you return safely. Your blogs are way too much fun. I know that I would miss them if they stopped.


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